Monday, September 29, 2008

Is it October 22nd yet?

Nope, it's not even October. I can not wait until the 22nd to get things moving ahead. I am so sick of waiting in purgatory - not sure which way my life is heading.

I talked my way out of the business trip I was supposed to go on in mid November, so if all works out I should be cycling by then and close to another ER. I need to call the REs nurse and see if she will let me go on BCP before meeting for the WTF appointment. I really hope so. I can not sit out another month. The waiting is killing me, and I am not enjoying the break at all. It is more like I am crossing days off the calendar until my life will begin at this point.

So that is it for me. Closing out September 2008 the same way I have been closing out every month. Hopeful sometimes, defeated most the time.

2 comments:

Meinsideout said...

Hi Krissy - I know what you mean - the wait between #1 and #2 was not fun - it was like my life was on hold until the next cycle. I felt so guilty - I wanted to be more present for my DH, work, etc. but it just was not possible.

I am 4dp3dt today. My RE's office called - the two embryos we had left from this cycle did not make it to freeze so the two that are in me are my last hope. I am staying positive and I am just trying to focus on it working, not wondering what the heck I am going to do if it does not work.

Hang in there. Oh - people like you inspired me to start my own blog - sticksandstimsmaybreakmybones.blogspot.com if you are interested.

Disneylover1971 said...

Good luck to you. You will be in my thoughts. I will be sure to check out your blog!